"Do not look back in anger or forward to the future, but look around carefully."
James Thurber (Columbus, 8 dicembre 1894 – New York, 2 novembre 1961)

tomorrow leaving for alicante. let's take chances 'cos you never know...

just scared. to death. by my things-to-do. by the selections' results that don't come out yet. by the chance i'm not goin' anywhere. by leaving (for some awesome days to Alicante) next wednesday. by the fact he won't write anymore. by the feeling i'm doin' it all wrong. by the feeling i have possibly done something wrong (but i can't figure it out...what is that???). by evil relatives....by bloody x-mas to come...
i'm nuts. crazy. but i need a job. or to know what i'm going to do with my life for the next century or so. mmmhhh maybe the last one is not like that...
i want a gazing ball. now. now now.

and now...make some noise for the drama queen...\o/ \o/ :)
mmmhh...feel better now.




o-k. come what fuckin' may. right?

epic date today...something must have happened to lj layouts makers and their account so i've just lost my beautiful layout i have been keeping for years...i remember that when i found i thought it would be perfect to last enough with me (who likes to change a lot and is never happy)..so i've just chosen this one which is very simple and cute...and i actually don't feel like messing around with html codes to creat one for myself...maybe i'm too old for these things now....and i'm so slow now it could take me hours...
besides that i realize how much lj is dear to me...and how much i'd miss a blog in here.
there's so much of me in this place that i barely believe it....:D
happy sunday everyone....

So little to say but so much time,
despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind.
Please wear the face, the one where you smile,
because you lighten up my heart when I start to cry.

Forgive me first love, but I’m tired.
I need to get away to feel again.
Try to understand why, don’t get so close to change my mind.
Please wipe that look out of your eyes, it’s bribing me to doubt myself;
simply, it’s tiring.

This love has dried up and stayed behind,
and if I stay I’ll be alive,
then choke on words I’d always hide.
Excuse me first love, but we’re through.
I need to taste the kiss from someone knew.

Forgive me first love, but I’m too tired.
I’m bored to say the least and I, I lack desire.
Forgive me first love, forgive me first love, forgive me first love, forgive me first love, forgive me, forgive me first love, forgive me first love

..Tan lejos te siento, tan cerca y tan cerca, te sentí tan lejos,
ahora no me quejo, yo lo consentí, insistí en quererte,
y ahora que no sé si insistir tu insistes en quererme,
para dos apostantes del amor cuando te vas me quedo yo,
cuando me voy tu te quieres quedar,
pero otra vez nostaré, la próxima vez nostaré, nostaré...



Ahora viajo sola, vivo en bosques sola, ya no tengo miedo.
Hay luz al fondo, siempre hay luz al fondo.
Y puedo ver pequeños islotes a flote que dejan que el sol les toque
y no sé si quiero irme o me quiero quedar,
lo que sé es que ya no quiero que me duela más,
así que nostaré la próxima vez, nostaré...



Evgeny Onegin: "You interpret my heart, my nature, as you wish to believe it. In truth, I have no secret longing to be saved from myself. "

....

Tatyana Larina: "Am I noble enough for you now?"

....

Tatyana Larina: Oh God. It hurts.
Evgeny Onegin: Why does it hurt?
Tatyana Larina: Because you are too late. Yes, you are too late Evgeny.

i find it great. video and song.


Opening Lyrics
She's sliding, she's sliding down to the depth of the world
Main Lyrics
Heaven can wait
and hell's too far ago
Somewhere between
what you need and what you know

Complete Lyrics
She's sliding, she's sliding down to the depth of the world
She's fighting, she's fighting the urge to make a ....

Heaven can wait
and hell's too far ago
Somewhere between
what you need and what you know
And they're trying to drive that escalator into the ground

She's hiding, she's hiding on a battleship of baggage and bones
There's thunder, there's lightening in an avalanche of faces you know

Heaven can wait
and hell's too far ago
Somewhere between
what you need and what you know
And they're trying to drive that escalator into the ground

You left your credentials in a greyhound station
with a first aid kit and a flashlight
Going to a ..... unknown

Heaven can wait
and hell's too far ago
Somewhere between
what you need and what you know
And they're trying to drive that escalator into the ground


Mare mare mare voglio annegare
Portami lontano a naufragare
Via via via da queste sponde
Portami lontano sulle onde
[F. Battiato)

i'm so messy lately...if it means something.
i hate the fact i stay in bed a lot when i can, 'cos i feel safe there. anything scares me.
i hate it. it's wrong. i have to get out from here.

“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.”
[Lao Tzu]

“What do you mean? Do you wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good on this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on?”
[J.R.R. Tolkien]




“The course of true love never did run smooth.”
[William Shakespeare]

i have no news. i'm just nervous. poor. and feeling alone. i'll be born again from wednesday the 14th. maybe.



Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream he said
The one that makes me laugh he said
And threw his arms around my neck
Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed his face and kissed his head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make him glow
Why are you so far away? he said
Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you

You, soft and only
You,lost and lonely
You, strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe his name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only boy I loved
And drowned him deep inside of me

You, soft and only
You, lost and lonely
You, just like heaven

You, soft and only
You, lost and lonely

Tags: lyrics, mess, youtube

« If I knew for a certainty that a man was coming to my house with the conscious design of doing me good, I should run for my life. »

(Henry David Thoreau, Walden )

and all the rest of my life..

and happy birthday to Nausy!!!nausicaa83

Orry, Johnny, Dalton, Sam, Bodhi, Max, Vida...thank you. and love you.

...pass on the fear
pass on the pain...

and i don't know where to begin. well, i'm leaving tomorrow at night (7/30) but i won't have time to write tomorrow...
lots of days have passed doin' nothing, doin' a lot and not enough to leave with a peaceful mood. but i can say i don't care. i'll do what i can and that's all. when i'll be back it'll be hell hot, i'll have to get ready quickly and write write write....we'll see. hope i'll have still time to do everything. anyway i'm thinking about...lost/lots of chances to take. and what could happen in spain one year after. same place, same time...how it's gonna be...i don't know...
but i was recalling that line...from that awesome film i saw right before merida....
i'll put it here again...not because i think it'll bring luck...but because i do need to think like that...

"YOU GOTTA TAKE CHANCES, 'COS YOU NEVER KNOW...YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? i'm not gonna worry if people will accept me or not..i'm gonna make hollywood wherever i am at..."
- To Wong Foo Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar -

got it steff? hope so.
COME WHAT MAY.
take care, have fun, laugh and drink!
HASta LUEGO

"I think you are a very bad man," said Dorothy.
"Oh, no, my dear; I am really a very good man; but I'm a very bad Wizard, I must admit."
- The Wonderful Wizard of Oz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjMkNrX60mA

"Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned. It's been a minute since my last confession....."

"I tried taking pictures, but they were so mediocre. I guess every girl goes through a photography phase. You know, horses... taking dumb pictures of your feet."

(Charlotte - lost in translation)

too cool!!! *______*