Midnight in the garden of Good and Evil

good "morning"...

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 19:08:50 GMT

“What do you mean? Do you wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good on this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on?”
[J.R.R. Tolkien]

“The course of true love never did run smooth.”
[William Shakespeare]

...that stole the only boy I loved And drowned him deep inside of me...

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 23:07:17 GMT

i have no news. i'm just nervous. poor. and feeling alone. i'll be born again from wednesday the 14th. maybe.

Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream he said
The one that makes me laugh he said
And threw his arms around my neck
Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed his face and kissed his head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make him glow
Why are you so far away? he said
Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you

You, soft and only
You,lost and lonely
You, strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe his name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only boy I loved
And drowned him deep inside of me

You, soft and only
You, lost and lonely
You, just like heaven

You, soft and only
You, lost and lonely

suona un'armonica...

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 20:01:13 GMT

« If I knew for a certainty that a man was coming to my house with the conscious design of doing me good, I should run for my life. »

(Henry David Thoreau, Walden )

scary waiting..

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 05:01:31 GMT

and all the rest of my life..

i know who i want to take me home...

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 15:13:36 GMT

and happy birthday to Nausy!!!nausicaa83

i'll miss you so bad...

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 11:17:19 GMT

Orry, Johnny, Dalton, Sam, Bodhi, Max, Vida...thank you. and love you.

all the love inside me fell like it drowned in a dirty ocean...

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 21:58:57 GMT

...pass on the fear
pass on the pain...

de vuelta (a la realidad/al lìo)

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 16:07:06 GMT

I was perched outside in the pouring rain
Trying to make myself a sail
Then I’ll float to you my darlin’
With the evening on my tail
Although not the most honest means of travel
It gets me there nonetheless
I’m a heartless man at worst, babe
And a helpless one at best....

Darling I’ll bathe your skin
I’ll even wash your clothes
Just give me some candy, before I go
Oh, darling I’ll kiss your eyes
And lay you down on your rug
Just give me some candy
After my heart

Oh I’m often false explaining
But to her it plays out all the same
and although I’m left defeated
It get’s held against my name
I know you got plenty to offer baby
But I guess I’ve taken quite enough
Well I’m some stain there on your bedsheet
You’re my diamond in the rough

Darling I’ll bathe your skin
I’ll even wash your clothes
Just give me some candy
before I go
Oh, darling I’ll kiss your eyes
And lay you down on your rug
Just give me some candy
After my heart

I know that there´re writings on the wall
But Darling I’ll bathe your skin
I’ll even wash your clothes
Just give me some candy
After my heart

Oh I’ll be there waiting for you...

almost time to go...

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 20:40:27 GMT

and i don't know where to begin. well, i'm leaving tomorrow at night (7/30) but i won't have time to write tomorrow...
lots of days have passed doin' nothing, doin' a lot and not enough to leave with a peaceful mood. but i can say i don't care. i'll do what i can and that's all. when i'll be back it'll be hell hot, i'll have to get ready quickly and write write write....we'll see. hope i'll have still time to do everything. anyway i'm thinking about...lost/lots of chances to take. and what could happen in spain one year after. same place, same time...how it's gonna be...i don't know...
but i was recalling that line...from that awesome film i saw right before merida....
i'll put it here again...not because i think it'll bring luck...but because i do need to think like that...

"YOU GOTTA TAKE CHANCES, 'COS YOU NEVER KNOW...YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? i'm not gonna worry if people will accept me or not..i'm gonna make hollywood wherever i am at..."
- To Wong Foo Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar -

got it steff? hope so.
COME WHAT MAY.
take care, have fun, laugh and drink!
HASta LUEGO

you know i'm no good...

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 12:16:43 GMT

"I think you are a very bad man," said Dorothy.
"Oh, no, my dear; I am really a very good man; but I'm a very bad Wizard, I must admit."
- The Wonderful Wizard of Oz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjMkNrX60mA

bye Frank...

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 10:21:02 GMT

"Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned. It's been a minute since my last confession....."

lost...in the rye.

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 13:13:46 GMT

"I tried taking pictures, but they were so mediocre. I guess every girl goes through a photography phase. You know, horses... taking dumb pictures of your feet."

(Charlotte - lost in translation)

i've got a pretty good idea, but i can't figure the godamn line!

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 13:42:53 GMT

too cool!!! *______*

"Smile, though your heart is breaking..." (Charlot, 1993)

Sat, 23 May 2009 16:46:33 GMT

"Is three years long enough to get over someone?"
(Sawyer, Lost 5x08.)

exactly one year ago...

Tue, 19 May 2009 21:00:50 GMT

so grateful to Val.

has anything actually changed the way i wanted from one year ago?
no. but this time i know it does not depend on me.
and it's always a change.

...Ed ora
che avrei mille cose da fare
io sento i miei sogni svanire
ma non so più pensare
a nient'altro che a te
Mi sono innamorato di te
e adesso
non so neppur io cosa fare....

...__

Mon, 11 May 2009 22:55:28 GMT

Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening

Whose woods these are I think I know,
His house is in the village though.
He will not see me stopping here,
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer,
To stop without a farmhouse near,
Between the woods and frozen lake,
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake,
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep,
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

-- Robert Frost

some riot...

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 15:39:19 GMT

Cause it's breaking my heart, it's breaking my heart
And it's breaking my heart to pull out the rain...

so ends my year-long romance with radio towers and machines....

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 11:12:00 GMT

Oh my God, a winter for a year
Oh my God, a winter for a year
And I cleaned out the back of my wardrobe for a year
Jackets never turn into branches
Not while you're not here

Oh my God, a winter for a year
Oh my God, a winter for a year
I kept my life so cold
Every breath just fogs up all the mirrors
The tears are frozen long
Long before I ever thought of crying

So ends my year-long romance
With radio towers and machines
Wasted all my prayers
That I can't remember my dreams
But I don't mind

Oh my God, a winter for a year
Oh my God, a winter for a year
And I cleaned out the back of my wardrobe for a year
Jackets never turn into branches
Not while you're not here

So ends my year-long romance
With radio towers and machines
Wasted all my prayers
That I can't remember my dreams
But I don't mind
No, I don't
No, I don't care anymore

from Odgrobadogroba (2005).

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 20:22:16 GMT

"I was six when I saw that everything was God, and my hair stood up, and all," Teddy said. "It was on a Sunday, I remember. My sister was a tiny child then, and she was drinking her milk, and all of a sudden I saw that she was God and the milk was God. I mean, all she was doing was pouring God into God, if you know what I mean."

-J.D. Salinger, Teddy, 1954

from an easter memory...

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 15:16:43 GMT

well...i do fall in love with my sister every single day...

taranto - easter day, ilaria.

"Are you trying make me sad? Or to keep me on my toes?.."

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 21:44:52 GMT

Are you trying make me sad?
Or to keep me on my toes?
Not the best you've ever had
But you say I'm pretty close

Moonlight or sunshine ,
Morning or night time
I choose to be alone
To be my own

Are you trying make me sad?
Jealousy's a powerful force
You're the best I've ever had
But you're not mine , and I'm not yours

Moonlight or sunshine ,
Morning or night time
I choose to be alone
To be my own

The birds all sing in blue
Now that summer is over
They'll move south and so will you
You did wrong but you made it seem
right, right, right

just for me...

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 01:41:24 GMT

i knew it...it could be so hard to be in the "day-to-day mood"... i knew it...lol!
note to the self: ...stay relaxed...do your things...pleaaaseeeeeee...do your bloody thesis...without thinking about tomorrow...
two days-silence can scary me a lot now...and i know i'm wrong, cos' so much has already been done. i cannot complain but i'm just authentically standing myself...(*please get me out of heeerr!* ^^)
what did i say three days ago???????
oh you sucking young lady..., go to bedd!!...
btw, as i can see, i've returned writing posts 'bout this...almost every single day.
awww....wow...

ps: today has been my first day (march, 6th) at the castle...the actual first day of full working will be next thursday...just for my record...
hell yes. my first medieval costume....

when real life gets like a movie...

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 22:58:36 GMT

O.W. Grant: "Every event is inevitable - if it wasn't, it wouldn't happen." -
Interstate 60: episodes of the road (2002)

well yes. yesterday i think i have one of those regular days you actually gonna remember forever. so they ain't just that "regular" do they?
i had the best time attending a seminar with my friends....but the whole day was full of pleasant things done with some friends of mine which i haven't seen for ages...and some drinks altogether with our Professor, that i won't forget soon...i just loved it.

then on the way back home, i found Val on train.
at first we were both sure we were returning back home with the last train and "alone"...so we sent each other messages at the same time, just to try, "hey i'm here all alone on the last train, who knows where are you now" ... "yes i'm here too!" message like......
and we met on train. hugs and cuddles and chats for 7 minutes and then i got off the train, at my stop.
i mean, every time we meet on train (and i happen to feel this way just with her, donnowhy...and she the same) it's just like "we haven't seen each other for centuries and we won't meet anymore for the rest of our lives". even if we kinda see almost every week, almost every day.
she was at the train window and while the train was leaving she screamed "nooo i forgottt!! take this!"... and she threw me a present that she wanted to give me since days..."because you have to get it now!"...and me chasing after the train, screaming "thaaaankkksss" like we would have not see each other for years....
we ARE CRAZY.

but it was like a film scene.
and my present was amazing....
just like the magic 8 ball...

when i got back home i found a lovely message, as well. from *__*
and i didn't expect it at all.
awww...almost every day happens something cute, now...
and if i think about how things are goin' now...i feel happy. can we say that? it won't bring bad luck, hopefully...or it will???
but it was damn important for me, to record all this.
if i ever get doubts...i'll check out the entries of almost three years ago...and i'll probably have a laugh!
so i'll treasure every day and every cutiness from now on...without thinking about tomorrow. 'cos they're worth living for, but day-to-day.

i swear.
i won't make plans...:)

a new discovery...

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 22:51:21 GMT

thanks to "mi hombre que silba" for this one...

Gone, Play On

This never ending song is scratching
Scratching my brain
Like a vinyl in desire
This never ending thought
Is coming and is gone
It's travelling on a plane on my way

And in a highway too
As if I speak for you
And I say that you did those things
I did in the past it's true

And in a highway too
In a truck I do
Keep your stuff in my pocket
Just like I did with the days we flew

This never ending song
Is coming and is gone
It's travelling on a plane on my way

This never ending song
Is coming and is gone
It's travelling on a plane on my way

Gone, play on
Gone, play on
Oh gone, play on
Gone, play on

Gone, play on
Gone, play on
Oh gone, play on
Gone, play on

....

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 13:01:27 GMT

...I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special...

thanks to astartesyriaca...well, i loved it...